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Have you ever known someone for so long that even though it’s been years, when you hang out, you can’t help but slip right back into how you were when you grew up together as teenagers?

You want them to be as they were, as we were, but who they are now competes with your memory, and for some reason it’s dissapointing to you. In this case, it’s a fall from grace in the sense that one person is involved in something the other believes is ‘Not Right’.

Sometimes it seems they both know it, but still nothing changes. How can you express concern to someone who seems to like being where they are regardless of whether it is good for them or not? It’s never your place to say it anyway, so you put it in a song instead

I like the way the music sort of disintegrates at the end, frustrated and tired and not really resolving itself, other than to just stop trying."

Is there a better way to put it?  This is so predestrian in life that it’s a quite sad. At the same time it makes you realize your friends right now may be strangers to you the next day.  In a positive way, I guess you can just take it easy with your friendships.  Cherish it but don’t become too attach that it’s hard to let go.  Isn’t it a bit discouraging?  I remember it was really hard for me to say goodbye to my friends when I had to move in 7th grade.  My parents kept telling that I’ll meet new friends elsewhere.  I had to move again in 8th grade and had to leave my friends.  Another same old speech.  "You’ll make new friends in high school."  They were right.  Begining of freshmen year, I stopped letting the little things get in the way of my friendships.  I pretty much stopped caring.  If this is how my friendships will be (good or bad),  I’ll look at it the same way.  Hah, easy said than done, but it makes life a bit easier.  Well, I shall leave it as that, talking about too much is somewhat a contradiction. 

Anyways, the main point of this post is that I can’t stop listening to Details Hurt My Mind’s soundtrack, and Not Right is currently stuck in my head.  =)